Shelby Stidham

My Life Right Now

Today is July 10, 2008 and I am getting married on August 23, 2008. I can’t believe its almost here. It seems like it was just yesterday that we had set the date but NOW it’s only 44 days away. Holy shit, that’s really close.

Seven months ago when we had started date-hunting I told myself that by July I would be at my perfect weight, just maintaining until the wedding. Well, seven months ago I didn’t realize how stressful life would be in seven months. In the last 3 months alone we: moved from a downstairs condominium (roommates) to an upstairs apartment (no roommates), adopted a dog, ended a big semester, started summer school, Matt started working full time, started making wedding favors and invitations, bought a washer and dryer, changed all household accounts, got another car (borrowed but much needed), and many other things. You see, I am a stress eater more than anything. While I’m not overweight by any means, I definitely would feel much more beautiful and like myself if I were about 10 pounds lighter. I even had a gym class over the summer where I worked out 5 days a week for one month but.. I was stressed about getting everything else done around the house while having to babysit the (dumb) dog that I ate more, basically canceling out my hard work at the gym. And now that the gym class is over, I’m not working out and I’m still eating like shit. SO needless to say, I need to start doing something before I turn into a potato before my wedding and can’t fit in my gown (which, BTW, fits like a glove). I DO want to be looking my best for my wedding but I’m having trouble finding inspiration to work-out when its 100 degrees plus outside. Stupid excuse, I know. Enough of that.

My wedding is in Las Vegas and I realize that’s far from here (in California, 7 hours away from LV). Much of my family isn’t going to be attending the wedding, which really irks me. Hey, I’ve been a broke ass college students for a few years too many and I realize going to Las Vegas can be expensive.. but I feel as if some family members are using the cost of going to Las Vegas as a way to get out of coming to my wedding. Paranoid? Perhaps. But, if you knew some of the selfish people in my family then you may be a little skeptical, too.

I’m going to be posting my pictures of my wedding on this blog once I get them. When I tried to search for other couples that had been married at The Wynn in Las Vegas, I only found ONE set of pictures on Flickr of ONE couple. Weird, huh? But I am looking forward to having a vacation… Matt and I certainly need it. We don’t see much of eachother and when we are both home, we nitpick eachother and try to pass of the responsibility of the dog. Sad, isn’t it? Not the situation… it’s sad that we do that to each other. It’s just all built up stress. The move was stressful and it seems like, a month later, I am still moving shit every weekend and unpacking stuff. And Matt is finishing his last 2 classes for his degree and so he is burnt out from working full time AND doing summer school.. when he comes home he plays Team Fortress all night. And quite honestly, it’s close to 11pm by the time he comes home so I’m usually winding down for the night watching a movie or something. We just need to learn how to make time for eachother better.. and how to utilize that time that we do have, you know? (I say ‘you know’ like I am talking to someone in particular when, in reality, no one reads this blog! Everyone who comes here just looks at my photoshop posts!)

Well… I think I am going to go take a bubble bath. I’m tired and I need to get out of this apartment.. I have NOTHING to do here. I can’t even blog properly because I’m inbetween computers and this blog DESPERATELY needs a whole new theme/layout. See you guys whenever I blog again… Hopefully soon.

XOXO