Just a Blurb About the Start
July 19, 2008 – 9:21 pmThe world was on fire no one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I’d meet somebody like you-Chris Isaak, Wicked Game
The first time I saw my fiance I was immediately physically attracted to him. I wasn’t concerned with having a relationship but only with immediate gratification, if you catch my drift. I had just gotten out of a series of stupid, retarded, horrible, and devasting relationships and I just wanted to party with my friends and keep away from guys and their bullshit. But the second night I hung out with Matt, he told me that he loved me. He will, of course, deny this to the end but he did and deep down he knows he did. I got a little freaked out by that but now, in retrospect, I really think he meant it. I had never meant a person so genuine before.
Now, almost three years later, we are a month away from getting married. We’ve had many fights and many good times but all in all, I think this is it. I don’t believe in soul mates or anything like that but I also do not believe there is anyone out there for me that would fit as well as Matt and I fit.. if that made sense. I didn’t want this–not when I got it. But now its the only thing I want and I couldn’t be happier.
Life is funny, isn’t it?